Astronaut

Arms numb. Chest heavy.

Legs week. Palms sweaty.

We wake to the same song though

there are thousands of heartbeats between us.

My mind races though it's stuck on you.

I circle the city searching for a former clarity.

I count the blocks toward my peace.

I drown in my sheets waiting for a rescue

But you're nowhere in the swell.

You would never be my hero.

I stitch myself to my mattress

To keep my head above the water.

This is not sorrow.

This is no longer a rescue mission.

The shadows surface

& chew at the ropes

holding me in place.

I slip into the depths of memory

& accept my fate.

My breath slowly expires

as I continue to sink into the darkness.

Even as I descend into my eternity,

still my mind is only on you.